Some Poems by Ebon Lupus :o~

So how does it feel to be a wolf trapped in a human body? How does it feel to have only two-dimensional images for your eyes and nothing but the dream of fur to keep you warm? What is it like to be displaced from all you truly love and wish to be? And what of the loneliness and the longing - what is it like?

Here I lay
Alone in my cage
The last of my kind

I want to feel
The warm fur
Of a wolf

I want to touch his ears
And if he'll let me...
If he'll let me...
I want to lick his soft lips

This is all I have
Alone in my cage

Taunting passions
Haunting memories
And a fading scent
Of wolves on damp straw

And soon...
So very very soon...
Even the straw will be gone.

Mortal wound
Searing pain and the scent of lupine blood
Wolf struggles to escape the predator man
Trembling...
Weakness...
Whimper...
Stumble and fall...

A wolf struggles to his paws
But fails as the light begins to fade

Final thoughts of the dream
If only I were a man - so powerful I would be!
Commander of the wretch-bellowing metal beast
Gliding upon the wind
Walking upon the water
Controller the flame
Master of the earth

If only I were a man...
What knowledge and freedom could have been mine
Oh final breath
Darkness then oblivion

Life...
So many hopes - so many dreams
Longing to love
Fear of loss
The past: a broken dream
The future: a dark abyss
The present: all there is

Life...
Struggle to grow
Confusion to overcome
Beauty to be seen
Ugliness to reconcile

Life...
Loneliness and want of warmth
A little joy
A lot of grief

God...
The will to live
The urge to love
The desire to be
The strength to overcome
The reason in the seed

And yet the seed must endure the storm alone...

Men are not free
They have lost freedom
They have built cages
Cages in which they pace
Distracted by entertainments
Emptiness
Pettiness
Longing
Fear

The paragon of animals?
Or just wasted material
Evolution reversed?
Nature's order subverted?
Maybe... for a while

Survival of the fittest?
Survival of the fattest!
Survival of the pettiest
But only for a while

All of life
So many forms
Struggling to be
To be what is real
Apparently nothing

Oh God...
Let me be a wolf again!
Let me be a wolf again!
Please let me be a wolf again!
Running between trees
under the sky
At one with the earth
Drinking crystal waters
Breathing dew laden air
Chase the hare
Taste the fire in the blood!
Howl at the moon
Gaze at the stars
Fight for my mate
Fight for what is real!

I WANT TO LIVE!

Time to rest
Last breath
Final pulse of a tired heart
Trembling...
Weakness...
Whimper...
Deep profound and lonely sigh...

Waking from the dream
Freedom from the nightmare
A tired lonely old man
Closes his eyes
Oh final breath
Darkness then oblivion

While somewhere...
Somewhere in another world...
The whimper of a wolf bitch
As she whelps new life

It's springtime once more

Whelped into darkness
Silk-soft tongue-caress
Cleanses life
A mother's Devotion
Her nurturing nipples
Gentle warmth and love
Leaping and spinning
Twisting bristle of fur
Learning strength and place
Pounce the field mouse
Stalk the rabbit
What is life and death?
Howl down the spirits
Luna, Sol, and Wolf
Sing the ageless song
Rally the pack
Pursue the deer
Feed the emptiness within
Growl and nip a brother
Scent sweet pulsing urine
Respectful gold gaze
The pack follows one Wolf
Beautiful and most skilled
Composed of rage and love
Run across frosty snow
Her scent thrills the heart
Touch drives the will
Warmth lies under her tail
Passion beckons
Love's deeply-sown seed
Whelped into darkness
Silk-soft tongue-caress
Cleansing new lives
Twisting, pouncing bristle of fur
Learning strength and place
Father's loving nuzzle
Grow and learn
Practice and improve
What is life and death?
Luna and Sol cross the sky
Seasons come and go
Fur turns gray
Beauty turns to dust
Eyes cloud with memories
Ears loose sight of sound
Seek the final quiet place
A spirit laid to rest
Dissolve into the night
Whelped into darkness
Silk-soft tongue-caress
Dream the world again

The world on Earth is changing
Evolution sometimes de-evolves
A species stagnates, perhaps...
To test and strengthen the whole
Humanity has been blessed...
As a child with too many gifts

The life force, it seems
Reincarnates the spirit of Wolves
In human flesh, perhaps...
So passions of the soul may save
Nature's greatest success...
From her greatest failure

The edge of the blade creates
Balance is pushed to the limit
Thrilling the beast within, perhaps...
Serves to subvert the dogma of ruin
For one is hard pressed to kill...
Beings given to one's heart

I've roamed this world for forty years
In grotesque human form
A thousand years my Wolf has howled
In twine a soul was torn

On another world this Wolf was slain
For his fur they took his life
A mate was stolen with loss of breath
A spirit drowned by strife

Large, black, alpha male
Thinks on the past and paces his cage
A lifetime wasted in this jail
Deep amber eyes glow in rage

Longing growl rolls deep inside
Wanting to be with his mate
A manmade hell, no place to hide
Trapped in a monster, his fate

Moist nostrils flare
Drawing scent

Black and gray fur
Silk-soft lips
Concealed fangs
Lips and tongues collide
To touch
To taste
And feel

Gold eyes flame
Coal black pupils expand
With furred-faces mirrored

Tongues intertwine...
Flow into mutual maws

Hearts pound
Desires burn
Fur bristles
Wolves kiss

Let him take me

I long to be consumed by the Wolf
I want to enter his beautiful body
  Feel his claws and fangs against this flesh
     The pulse of his passion... deep and hot
     Caress his rich dark pelt with my heart
  Taste his lips and tongue
My blood and soul are for him
My mind is already his

Let him take me

I long that he should find bliss in me
I want him to devour this useless shell
  So that I may find redemption
     There is a grander purpose than life
     Dying to feed another... ultimate love
  I long to nourish the Wolf
I am his sacrifice
I am his prey

Let him take me

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